so how have you been, my imaginary audience?? ...

there are no excuses, or an audience from what I can see... but apologies to myself for walking away from this blog.... it has value, read or not...

I didn't walk away from the concept..... probably my major personal goal of the last 2 plus years has been to tackle this dilemma, life problem, whatever... and I have not tackled it or at least not resolved it....

although part of the consequences of writing the blog was my own realization that I did not accept myself as I am.... in part, a disabled person.... not the (as I now know it's often called, damn the titles)....temporarily able bodied person I started life as....

so you think you have a problem and it's right there in the mirror.... waiting for you to see it...

tweaking and fretting, digging and talking, venting and tearing, I have faced this demon ... this unsummoned change in my position in the world.... and found some self-esteem .... resettling the molecules of my being to new positions on myself and others....

sure wish I had chronicled details....

today I am a whole woman, yet disabled, facing a world that rarely accepts what it perceives as different.... standing with thousands of other disabled people who also are isolated, lonely and often desperately reaching out to connect....

let's talk more about that...